Oh, Autumn. It really is the best season of all, isn’t it?
Depends who you ask.
For most of my life I thought of summer as the best season. I mean, why wouldn’t I? My birthday is on the summer solstice (June 21st) and those three blessed months of June, July and August represent freedom! Or at least they used to.
Then one day I realized…
I still have to work as much in June as I do in February and October and every other month. Also, it’s really freaking hot and humid outside and I’m rarely comfortable. I don’t get to spend my days on the lake because #1, I don’t have a boat and #2, I have bills to pay. Therefore, I really don’t see what the big deal is about summer. I like it but I don’t love it.
So I’m now officially on the fall bandwagon with everyone else. For all of the reasons everyone else is; the chill in the air, cute scarves, pumpkins, apple orchards, boots, light jackets, football games, chili, the colorful leaves. It’s an absolutely gorgeous time of year!!
But what I like the most is what it represents. No, not freedom, in fact this is an extremely busy time of year for me at work.
This season represents change and how beautiful it can be.
Finally, I get to my point.
You see, I’ve changed.
Lately, I haven’t felt inspired to post or to blog. I’m just over it..for the time being.
I’ll want to write about something and then I’ll remember my website is howetoFITNESS.com and I’ll think “this is so not about fitness this is about LIFE”. I feel a disconnect.
I’m fine. I’m more than fine, I’m happy. But I’m also really freaking busy right now between work and wedding planning and self care. I’m just “in between” and that’s okay, I’m going to live here for a bit
I’m not going to post just to post. I’m not going to talk about stuff I find pointless, like the fact that I had a handful of mini size candy bars today or that I didn’t feel like working out but I did anyways.
Who cares? Not me. I’m so bored with that rhetoric. I don’t want to talk about bodies or calories or recipes or workouts at all. I want to talk about passion and purpose and ideas and mindsets and…
But not right now.
The “problem” is, I’m not feeling pissed off or angsty or emotional or anything else that makes for great material. I’m in a pretty neutral state at the moment.
This past Monday, I met with my friend and website gal. We are working on my new site and the deadline we set to have it done is December 16th. Tomorrow, I even have a photo shoot scheduled and guess what? The pictures aren’t going to be fitness related. They are just going to be ME. Not me doing a push up or me with a barbell…just me being me.
There was nothing wrong with my first official “photo shoot” 4 years ago (pic below). Change is beautiful, evolution is necessary.
That’s why my new website will simply be my new married name; stephfischer.com. No “fitness” attached, not even “healthy living”. Just…me. Free to change and evolve and be whoever I want to be at whatever season of life I’m in.
Maybe when I have a new domain name for my website I’ll feel more inspired. Maybe tomorrow I’ll feel inspired. Who knows. Either way, I’m not going to force it.
If there’s one thing this fall season teaches us it’s that changing and letting go are good things. Let them happen. Don’t resist it. Don’t force it.
In the past 6 months I’ve let go of friendships, grudges, labels, and mindsets that no longer serve me and even if it hasn’t been easy…it’s been beautiful.
Embrace it. Celebrate it.